Wow. It’s really is beautiful outside, even though the temperature is 91 degrees. The humidity, however, doesn’t seem to be all that horrible. That’s what gets me, and many many others; the humidity. When my hands start to hurt is the time I complain about the weather. When they don’t hurt, I’m fine. In fact, I’ll share a little secret with you, that’s the subject of my next tattoo.
“Sometimes I think it’s a shame when I’m feeling better when I’m feeling no pain.”
It’s a line from “Sundown” by Gordon Lightfoot; yes the guy who sings “The Wreck of the Edmond Fitzgerald.”
It’s been a long and difficult time deciding on my next tattoo, of which I will be getting at our local tattoo parlor, Homeward Bound.
Some of my other tattoos are just tattoos. I will continue to get the tattoos that mean something to me. The Firebird was the one that meant the most to me, an honor tattoo for my niece who was killed a car crash 4 1/2 years ago, but this new one is more personal. It will remind me of me, of the things I have gone through, medically speaking, and how it has lead me to where I am now.
It also has a literary reference which I will share with you.
Hunter S. Thompson is one of my favorite authors. I contemplated getting a tattoo of one of his quotes, but it seems that every HST fan has one. I like to be different. After his death, many magazines reprinted interviews with him or articles that he had recently written.
One such article in Rolling Stone, a frequent employer of the writer, ran an interview in which HST was talking about his own health issues. He mentioned a line to a song, that song-which at the time I couldn’t place, but it sounded familiar.
It was 6 am. I was driving to work, shifting in my seat, trying to take the pressure off my back so I could at least drive to work before the pain became too severe for me to carry out the day. It was then that I heard the song on the radio and realized the connection.
A favorite song of mine in the past, I cursed myself for not recognizing it sooner. But there it was, and there it will forever stay in my mind.
On the days I have pain, I don’t think of this song. It’s not until the pain subsides is when it creeps in, reminding me of how true it is.
HST had constant pain even through multiple surgeries. His pain never alleviated. Mine subsided, though other things have crept up since my back surgery. I won’t bore you with that history, but just to say, I feel better when I feel no pain.
What a shame.